there is something very big going to be happening in two weeks from today. something bigger than anything yet that's been in my life. I leave for basic on Nov 17th. I leave my family, my hometown of 18 yrs, my friends, my home, my boyfriend, and I start all brand new, fresh. New home, new job, new friends, new environment, new state... everything.

change is something almost every person is afraid of. Some ppl admit that change is a fear so great and terrible to them, and others dont know its the boogie man until it scares them in their face. Im scared right now, but i know as soon as i get into it all i'll be fabulous. Its like a race I guess or facing a bully, you know you are going to finish well its just the first mile or the first swing is going to be the big jump.

so much should and yet its not, so much shouldnt and yet it is... way too much.